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I say it's over and it will never work, that I'm done and I'm never walking this path again, that it hurt so much the last time that I would never even dare. I still feel the pain, the hurt, the past I claimed was vain but still has its snares all tangled over me, the emotions I brag are dead and my brain spinning trying to play the role of "I don't care". If only you saw within the signs or could somehow read through my codes that family means ily ... My slow songs and lousy dance moves, my unnecessary jokes and curious laughter, my over concentrated persona and over dedicated ethics I use to stair you away, body languages i fear would show and actions I'm scared you'd see. Those many moments I held you and said I just wanted to say hello or how I would slither my hands through your hair claiming there was something there, or sat in awe from afar and stared. When my every words now are tamed so as to not make you know I said it or I intend...