Scott C. Eneje Blog [The Scott C. Eneje's Chronicles]

WHAT DO I STAND FOR?   I can ’ t stand up for what ’ s not right Then why the hell am I still in this fight? They keep saying boy don ’ t do wrong How can i when my entire world ’ s full of dung Something ’ s just not right around my corner Something ’ s been undefined all summer They say this war is not for the weak at heart But even when drowned in tears they insist that this i s my path Where did right go when following right is always the left turn How in the world is the death of the weak hearted fun Since when did the word weak mean wicked? And broken hearted mean pretend? They say I bear the sword to protect lives Then why do I see dead people and their bloods on my knife They say I stand for light and a just course But that ’ s what the other guy also died for I ’ m ordered to fight until the enemies see the light Now here I stand alone in the cold dark night If indeed my enemy saw the light and I stand alone ...

WRITERS BLOCK Feeling locked to a corner and trapped in a tough spot My head and heart are both speaking and it’s driving me nut Trying to write from my mind but I can’t tell which My heart mind or heads mind, please tell me which I know how I feel but I seem lost in words I’m not speechless or lost for words; I’m just lost in both worlds This pain within that dies when expressed has swallowed my thought I never knew I buried this much within to resurrect all I had fought I just wish I can realize what I cannot see I feel empty yet swallowed in the deep blue sea I never knew the ocean was this high up? It seems I’m not sinking but I’m falling from the top   Meaning this blue I see is not the sea but the skies cloud No wonder my screams sounded this loud Still waiting to hit grounds floor and make a grand pop Or would it be a splat or a flat flop? Everything I must say I feel has already been...

SOMEBODY THAT I USE TO KNOW   I’ve been addicted before and I know just how it feels The thirst and hunger like a wound that would never heal It use to be that way with me and you As you were the one I was gonna stay true to When a minute apart was like a century in hell And a moment out of sight was like being trapped in a well The walls that came between us would fall like wet sheet But now we seem stuck in this pile of shit I guess its life’s way of saying we were never meant to be Maybe we’ve walked just too far to see How far apart we are in our individual path And how slowly you seem to have strolled away from my heart I once told myself that we would stay forever But I believe this is one of those cases where you are allowed to say never I just wish I could still make you remember Who knows just maybe we could have lasted a little longer I do know how it feels to be addicted And you were the only drug my body never ...

DON’T JUDGE ME   I know I’ve never been good at telling the truth It’s not like I love the lies but it’s been well strapped to my boot You’ve heard them say that change is inevitable So for so I do promise to change I know the wait has been long and unbearable But please just give it a while and watch me change I’ve said I’ll give it all for you, spirit, body and soul Because she had me once doesn’t mean she kept it all Cheating is wrong and doing that would only make me a fool You should also know that it was a past and careless fall Now here I am at your door trying to apologise Hoping it’s not too late for us I’m dropping it all, my cons, tricks and lies Just to have us back together as us Do not expect me to deny what they say I did After all I did do most of what they say I did You should also know that it was part of my past Because she walked pass doesn’t mean she has come to stay I’m trying to walk pass my past...

FIGHTER [Part 2] I hear them shout stop They plan to pull me from the top It is not anger I feel towards them, its pity I smell their desires and cravings, shit how filthy But I do admire their faith Damn they sure don’t know their mate Do they really think they can stop me? Are they blind or just refusing to see? They are better off trying to freeze hell They will never see me fail Falling and rising is part of the protocol Because you saw me fall doesn’t mean you’ve seen it all Beat me to the floor with your best stick Come on, hit fast, come quick I’m growing red eye like the terminator I’m not Arnold but I’m sure gonna command even at grounds floor You call my current stats the shameful pit I just see another territory to conquer and spit Keep knocking; you’ll never knock me down You’ll never get my face to make that frown By the time I’m done from this gutter You’ll see me and scream here comes the fighter.

ECHOES   I sorted out for the truth Nothing more than the root Of all that was hidden Of all buried within Something I can tell no one Something existing but was never born A secret that will change the world A mystery only meant for the called Alas my search sees its end My lust that has become a friend But the truth has been laid far beneath And getting it has forced me down six feet I have kept my search a mystery a secret But what I ’ ve become is my fall and defeat I wish I could tell you I really wish I told you It ’ so loud inside my head With words that I should have said As I drown in my regret I can ’ t take back the words I never said   Inspired by Lupe Fiasco

IMMORTALITY   Trapped in the shadows of this feeling An emptiness that has brought me nothing Feeling lonely in the mist of plenty Alone in a crowd so many Trying to bear the urge to fall Telling myself that I can ’ t do it before all Smiling while engulfed in bitter tears Laughing when my sorrows beget fear My loud scream falls to silent slumber As the world around me seems not to bother The scars refuse to heal My soul now fails to feel I write in tears since no one can see I write in anguish since no one sees me They say change is the daughter of inevitability But my pain seizes to leave as it has gained immortality.