GOING BACK TO DECEMBER

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GOING BACK TO DECEMBER

Trying to move to the things ahead of me

But all I can hold onto are the things I see

And all I see is how much I hurt you

With tears in my eyes I try to write you

I’m not greedy I swear I won’t ask for much

This is just an apology from a broken heart

I won’t even try to rhyme or tune up my words

I just want you to know that I mean every word

I knew she was bad news the moment she said hi

But I guess I was too foolish to want to run away

It was not my intensions to have her get in the way

But that was just what I did anyway

I don’t even know where to begin from

All I hear in my head are the sounds of anguishes drum

I miss you so much I can’t even think

I know you’ve heard that line before so I’d say some that are really mine

I’d do anything to go back in time

To change the event that I could have easily made uneventful

This is not a poem, a rhyme or words of deep thought

But I did put some thought to write this to you

I guess I should have paid more attention to my English teacher

Who knows, maybe I would have been able to come up with a proper letter

I can’t do nothing else but miss you

The thought of you overwhelms me so much that it hurt

But I know it can never be as much as I hurt you

I swear to be a better friend

I swear to be a better person

And it’s really shameful that even in this I must ask something of you

That you forgive me and give me a second chance

I know life’s not a game so there are no round two

But I really need one just to be with you

This is me swallowing my pride to say I’m sorry

It didn’t really taste like much cause I had little left to had done what I did

It’s been a year and its still feels like yesterday

I guess it’s the price I pay for always going back to December all the time.

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