I HAVE DIED EVERYDAY

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I know this seems to be the only thing I write about these days

But when you spend an eternity in a lonely world your perspective begins to change

Who would have guessed that I would ever run out of time?

Who would have thought that I of all would speak of a final breath?

I see a realm of golden white and shadow snows that glows

I feel the wind of the flowing white gown that sweeps through the forest

I hear your heart beat a thousand miles away calling from within the world above

I have waited forever to feel this pain that makes the heart aches in thought

My soul has longed grieved for the day when I would not have to live but find life itself

I believe that’s what happens when you die over and over again while you yet live

Believe, faith, hope, trust and love are the things that are well defined but still unknown

Even in an eternity of search, the mystery of what I longed seeked and now have found puzzles me

You must surely not understand all that I say to you right now in this letter

But I want you to know that I have died everyday waiting for you

A millennium late yet I adore you

Please do not be afraid of what I say to you right now

I have longed believed that even if I don’t find you, time would

I have loved you for a thousand years

And would love you for a thousand more

But my thousand years bargain is almost at end

Even so I die again with joy that I finally found you

For the first time I am not afraid to die, come close and hear my last whisper

I beg of you to not be afraid of what is or what is to come

Time would stand still for this forever moment that these words would never know rust

One more step closer my dear and hear

I have loved you for a thousand years; all alone I have loved you for a thousand years

And would continue to love you, for forever more

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