SCREAM

I have tried to put this down a couple of times

even promised myself not to erase a word until I was done

I apologise for any wrong word that I might live behind

but I would that you know that sometimes the brain would often misinterpret the heart

one can imagine what the finger would be forced to do when commanded to then write

all of a sudden this words are heavier than they once felt

to put each sentence in place so you might understand what I meant to say

I have a heart as loud as a lion but my voice without feels tamed

my soul within me cries but my eyes do not know so

what I feel would heal a nation but my feelings itself hurt so bad enough to kill even the bravest

how do I make the universe see that you are the most incredible thing to me

how do I make the heavens release its trumpet at the sound of your voice

the peace I feel when you touched my lips

now in peace you rest that I might never see sleep

the hole in my heart and regret I feel for the words unsaid

the thought I hoped would travel through waves and take you away

but I never thought you'd ever be a thought now carried away

no one knows how it feels inside, they've never been there, ever

part of me want to just reach within and pull out the ache I feel

my heavy heart and words are bound to a stone well carved in place

I know that where you are is way better than where I am

so would it be selfish to ask that you trade beauty for an ashes moment with me

or would I allow you go away indeed in order to do the right thing

my spirit screams vain words hoping for a sound that would never be heard

if I would change anything it would be the day you went away from me

or would it be the night I whispered goodnight but meant to spend the night

it could also be the day I leaned for a kiss but timidly grabbed a quick hug

or maybe those days that we spent nights together and only played solitaire

if my life was a chest game I would repeatedly err just to hear you call me your mate

if I could talk to fate I would preach a sermon on how our love would birth faith

maybe with that I would change what now is

taking this deep breathe I realise that I finally wrote down a piece of how I feel

it's just so sad that you would never see what I wished you did

if spirits are real I beg now a favour that I might have

that they whisper to you this words from my bleeding heart

and for mercy's sake add this three words too

I love you.... and I wish you had known.