WHAT I WANT TO KNOW

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I've been waiting to ask these questions to someone that has all the answers.
I wake up at night whispering it to the wind so for my sake it would tell it to the world
I'm so afraid of what might be and I am loosing what is to what won't let me be
I use to be as brave as lion but my roar now rings out silence and my spirit weak and tamed
My confident once was cosmic and I had my feet on my own world
I've waited all my life to say this but I couldn't read out the lyrics to my own song
Even now as I walk towards the light I'm afraid. I hear the neighbors shout and the ambulance ring
Part of me wishes to return and another has no reason too. If saying this out loud would cost me everything why not stay here silent with nothing?
But if nothing is what I have, then everything is worth risking. So saying it now is not an option but the only thing to do.
I hear the blues in the land above and the metal rock band from beneath.
If my desires are lies, then I wonder what good they will do in the land of truth as I now desert my home where the truth is forbidden.
I'm tired of punches no pun intended but I've been doing this all along and I'm getting it all on my face while standing in line.
I'm tired of the silence, I was born in it, breed in it and about to die in it, would it kill me to speak out now?
If no one ever hears it, who would believe I screamed this loud right before the end.
I'm gonna ask, I'm not afraid anymore. I'm taking a chance and ignoring the death treat beside my death bed.
If fate is real, why did I live, just to see it all ends like this? If love is pure why does it hurt so bad? If good is good why does it fight? Evil or not, war always bring pain and if it does nothing, doesn't that make good foolish, living evil to rule the world?
If we all have a future why do babies die in the womb?
If we are all gonna die anyway why do we do so much to escape it? If the devil hate us so much why was he thrown down here with us? Better still why doesn't he just leave earth if we sicken him this much?
Why did I bother writing this if no one here really knows the answers?
If I'm gonna die now why can't I just get my answers from the one with all the answers? If I'm actually dying how the hell I'm I writing this.
This is what I want to know.

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