In Love With The Coin

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I saw her, i loved her, it's funny even when i intend to talk about you, i'm forced to start with her.
Left stock in this ship wishing i saw you first, no! I'm not conflicted, i love you, i love you more.
I love her, i love her still. OK, maybe a little conflicted, but there are no wars, i'm certain, none at all.
I close my eyes and i think of you, i open them but she's all i see. i will kill me just to make myself see you.
OK, maybe a little war, but it's something i can deal with, i still smile the same, i look the same, no one sees.
Yes! no one sees this, i live, but i die many times. it seems to be the curse of living, to actually die.
and the seed of dying so many times is knowing i would live again only to die, oh goodness, just die already.
Drifting, loosing a mind i never had, feeling hurt in a heart i thought was lost, bleeding deep from a wound i can't see, this suck, that makes it hurt even more... Awe, this sucks, i love and i love.. shit, i'm in love
I guess i'm writing this cause i know, i know you love me, i see it, i feel it. yes, i know it too.
I'm in love with you, you are in love with me, so also with her and she i. gosh i'm going insane
she broke me, and you picked me up, fixed me, healed me and gave me a home.
She walks back in and i stand at the door. broken again, i break everything else. No! not yet, but soon
but unlike before, i will never heal from this, because it is not my broken heart i fear would break, but the sweet warm heart that fixed mine and gave my heart a home to stay.
my love, you left your heart beat in me, you gave it all, you took the chance, you took the fall for me, you taught me honor, you did it all for me, now i am strong, but not strong enough, not even as Sia, but i see you, even when i see her
in the end, it's you i choose and here i am, left to wonder, do we always get what we ask for? so maybe i'm crazy but i'm not all that mad, because if i'm making that much of a difference, everything would be different, but it's the same again, it one single piece, two distinct side.. i'm in love with the coin.

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