SPLIT SOUL

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I've been in love before, I won't lie that this is my first.
I've loved many others, I'm quite sure I know just what love should feel like from every angle.
She loved me for real and broke my heart like a movie. Or was her love the movie and the breakup the real deal.
I swore never to love again, keep my doors open for the fuck of it and let passers by pass by.
I saw you come in, I was just gonna let your time pass, I wouldn't fall, Na! I wouldn't even bend to the beat much more sink to your sea.
Shoulders high, eyes set to the sky, don't fall, don't love, don't let it happen again. Never, we said, never again.
But I'm spell bound, no, trapped, I love this feeling. Am I stupid or what? How would I fall again.
No, don't show it. She can't know I've fallen for her.
This Deltan curse I have, river edge. No, I won't dive in.
I want to fight this feeling and yet I wish to keep fighting for it just to keep feeling it.
I love her, no, I can't love, we don't love, but I still do. I do love her, why can't I agree with me and just do myself a favour.
No! Run away, no more favours, throw love away, don't fall for the B'. But no B in love, so I fall in love still for B.
Confused but understand exactly how this feels.
I love her, but she must never know. Not until this split soul becomes one. She must never know that those I love get hurt the most.

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