Finally Clean

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I've loved this feeling many times before and I can't stop myself from loving the hurt.
You were all over me like a wine-stained shirt that I shouldn't need to wear anymore.
And yet, this was a mark that i found hard to get rid off, always going back and forth months after month.
Now, I can slowly feel the rain as the clear cloud goes dark and the storm replaces the calm.
And the mighty wind is followed by a down pour and my lungs filled with water overwhelmingly that no one hears me scream
Yet this time around as I seem to be drowning in the flood I think i can finally breathe.
The blood stain that I couldn't get out, washed off and the rain took out every trace of you and it seems I'm totally free.
The sweet butterfly that became this fire breathing dragon that smoked my house and heart are all getting cleared out
The flood took all I had and with it all of my pictures and memory of you.
The drought seemed so much worse but the flood seems to be the bitter sweet I needed.
All of a sudden with this drowning moment I can clearly breathe and I think I'm finally clean.
But just because I'm clean doesn't mean I don't miss it yet missing it doesn't mean I need it.
So now that I'm finally clean I doubt I'd ever wanna risk it...
#DeathtoAddiction

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