Broken Piece

Sometimes I feel like i'm going nowhere and sometimes i feel I'm just rolling Sometimes I feel like I'm out of my mind and sometimes I feel I never had one to begin with.
How do I loose something I never had? How do I find something that was never there?
There are times I leave my own head and go head hunting, before you call me murderer know I'm just trying to see if someone else's head is more quiet than mine around my neck
Don't tell me to be tough and stay strong and that real men never quit! How do you even know that you are real or anything else is?
Have you died before to see what is ahead or do you remember the life before you were born?
Let me define my own real and say the very word is the principle on which illusion exist and only nut cases ever get a glimpse of the shadow that walks in full form.
You say be strong through it, never give up and never give in but you have no idea how many times I've tried, and haven't you defined stupidity as doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result?

The truth is, I'm just very scared, scared to stop and scared to keep going, scared to break and scared to hold on to the cracks.

In the end, Sometimes, we do break. Yeah, even those who are made of things that break stuff meets their match in time.

But it's a good thing, I believe. New life often comes out of those cracked eggs. Even the Phoenix would have to burn to ash to start over, we just have to stay calm through it, wait, watch and believe, that in time, out of the ashes shall rise the new life of the phoenix...
So let me die proud today and quit this one time with joy, looking forward to the unhatched - Today's Chronicle entry - Broken Phoenix