Scott C. Eneje Blog [The Scott C. Eneje's Chronicles]

It was a quiet summer evening when we first met I still remember how it seemed like I was no longer on the earth How warm I felt on the inside and shivered on the outside That feeling of instant craziness and total loss of one’s mind I’m sure you understand what I’m talking about; don’t you? If you are reading this it means you too must have been in love before; haven’t you? That sudden gravity pulling you towards someone instead of the ground And all you seem to think about is this gold mine that you’ve just found Where you forget what you want because you’ve found all you need That desire to follow where ever it is the story leads But sometimes even knights in shining armours become your darkest night And damsels in distress are the wicked witches of the east waiting for a fight Picking on shallow reasons to fire the first dart straight for your fresh heart The same that seem to be the only joy in your life are the ones that make you cry ...

Why do those we love and cherish seem to hurt us the most?? Someone once said it was a good sign, meaning we loved them truly and every thing they do can touch our heart. But i think that's just plain old evil, dressed in a slick red gown, short and tight. Must we always feel broken to feel love? Must we always lose our heart in search of someone to hold onto it? Your every word as sharp as excalibar piecing through my soul. And even as you watch me bleed you wear a grim smile and tell me that i'd be fine. Even as you see me fall, you tell me to go higher so i could fall harder. You stab my heart with a kiss and blow the dust of sorrow straight into my eyes. You want me to love you always when you are in love with another guy. You wish to feel my mercy but ignore the pain and angish you make me feel inside How did i bind myself so deeply with you? How did my imprint on you become such a curse? You say i'm being paraniod and that you love me more than anything els...

How long do i plan to make this last? Playing the hero and yet being the real vilian. Or is it that i'm the hero who just loves playing the vilian? Damn, i'm so lost and confused and i can't seem to get help. Everyone want me to be what they envision me to be, they don't even know what i am. They expect me to be perfect, yet they hate me when i am perfect. I say i'm a one person man but everyone wants to be the one. They will do anything to have me served up in their bowl, they'd dress me up and sause me too. But in the end it's the fill of their stomach and a classic disposal that they desire. I'm done with the double standard life, i am making a standard. I can't have everyone all at once, but truly, i quit, i don't even want anyone anymore. They will bring me down, slowly, they will all be my fall, and they will spread my shame. I want them all to know, that i do wish i could have them all but it's not a perfect world. I can...

I heard them say that love can never die, that like energy; it is only transformed to a whole new form But someone should have told me sooner before i let you go so far Before i saw this note you left behind written in your blood and imprinted on my heart I never knew you saw me this way or loved me like this to allow me hurt you this much You looked at me and faked a smile so i wont see your tears drop off your cheek You kept mute and listened to me talk about how much i loved her and would want to be with her You hid your pain and held back your breath so as to not break down and cry How i would walk up to you with a hard poke to your shoulder when you had envisioned a kiss How much you hoped that i would be that one you could be one with But i was too careless to notice until i lost you Watching you wave goodbye as you walked towards the sunset Now looking into her eyes and it is yours i see When i'm with her i'm thinking of you and what we could do. Damn i wis...

Well this is the world that we are living One minute you are the hero and next you are a villian We try to preach life and save the walking dead But they say our ways are old fashion and our fashion is so dead We bare their babbles and hoped that they see what we're seeing But not be left out we closed our eyes and joined the blind in road crossing We turned from the path and sold out our heart Now our stage is full with ignorant kings and holy tawth Why would you trade a diamond crown simple because the people frown We seem to have lost ourselves and our way And then we brag that we would be there someday Do you even know where here is you babbling mouthed cone You empty soul screaming there's fire in my bone You want to be like them because you see them excell Do you not know that to get there it is their soul that they sell You trade the gospel for the fun of fame You ignore your duties and walk about without shame Did you forget that this world is not our...

It's cold outside but i am so warm right here in my little fantasy world Where i can picture you holding onto me with that warm smile on Your beautifully long  dark brown hair that flows through my mind as my thought strays in the dark night The only light that glows is the reflexion of the moons light through your glossy brown eyes The sweet touch of your lips and the calm pound of your heart beat The tingles in my belly that rings out your name clearly in silent wisper Wordless thought and voiceless actions and soulful bliss In the cool of this beautiful evening we stare up to the stars As the glittering cloud gathers to make a bond of our unity To tag us forever and always and bears withness in itself for the heavens and the earth to see The cloud in excitement pours out tears of joy as our lips are looked in under the diamond showers Our hands closed up and forms a sparkling light that signifies our strenght together Suddenly the silence is broken by the sound of my...

I can still feel the touch of your hands rub through my hair Those moments we shared that we swore would never be forgotten Our love that we promised would never die or come to an end You were more than a lover, you were my friend, my sister and my wife soon I guess my guess didnt work out as i'd guessed it would I don't know if you celebrate this where you are right now But it's lovers day over here and i just wanted to say i wish you were here I know by flesh we can't be together because we are far apart But even with what have become of us our bonded soul still survives It is my hope that our broken spirits oneday unifies And all the hurt i feel soon dies as what we shared so long did I just remembered that day when you said you and i were forever And that if we leave the earth we would make prom in heaven We would be queen and king and lovers of a kind They say in seperation the body leaves but the heart could still be closely attached But we are no ...