Scott C. Eneje Blog [The Scott C. Eneje's Chronicles]

This is what i wanted to say, i didn't want to do this when everyone else was you are a gem and you do mean a lot, i have done so many poems but felt like  doing something different to tell you how i really feel. it's just to simple say.We are  FAM -I - L - Y and I- L-ove - Y-ou Happy Valentines Day

This is not a poem or a love song. It is a pledge and a commitment. In this little life I have lived in so far, I have seen love, felt it and even been in it. As I am still . Been told many things about it. Some call it a prison and others; a pit. To some its that one time you are allowed to be a fool and jump off a cliff to catch someone who jumped off. To some, its a strong exchange of emotional attachment, when the body simply feels thing you can't understand and you are simply zombified by the sight of the other person. To some, its a thick wall that will cloud your senses and limit you from attaining perfection and strength without any grief or remorse. I don't really know for sure how true or false the many believes of others are. But i do know that my heightened senses and flooding lust is just an atom of what I've experienced. I know that jumping off a cliff is simply a flight test as being with you gives me wings. I know that I have never been stronger...

I've been waiting to ask these questions to someone that has all the answers. I wake up at night whispering it to the wind so for my sake it would tell it to the world I'm so afraid of what might be and I am loosing what is to what won't let me be I use to be as brave as lion but my roar now rings out silence and my spirit weak and tamed My confident once was cosmic and I had my feet on my own world I've waited all my life to say this but I couldn't read out the lyrics to my own song Even now as I walk towards the light I'm afraid. I hear the neighbors shout and the ambulance ring Part of me wishes to return and another has no reason too. If saying this out loud would cost me everything why not stay here silent with nothing? But if nothing is what I have, then everything is worth risking. So saying it now is not an option but the only thing to do. I hear the blues in the land above and the metal rock band from beneath. If my desires are lies, then I wo...

People say love hurts but I'm sure they speak hypothetically without any real idea of what hurting feels like. Loving someone who loves you but wouldn't want to be with you. Who tells you that you are better apart than together. Wait a minute, am i talking in the third person tense while talking to u? Gosh! You see how crazy you've made me? You walk towards me caressing my senses and then walk away just close enough to leave my body wanting. In all our fight you always win even when I'm right. Yet I have to bend foolishly being the idiot who get screwed over. You tell me that you love me and then grab a real gun saying let's play kill the thief. I wonder why I play the thief when you stole my heart and ran away with it. You say it disgust you but you never throw it away. You keep me as your trophy well framed on your wall. I know this is all a game to you and you are the master with the highest score yet I stay just to get played consoling myself saying; at ...

I have tried to put this down a couple of times even promised myself not to erase a word until I was done I apologise for any wrong word that I might live behind but I would that you know that sometimes the brain would often misinterpret the heart one can imagine what the finger would be forced to do when commanded to then write all of a sudden this words are heavier than they once felt to put each sentence in place so you might understand what I meant to say I have a heart as loud as a lion but my voice without feels tamed my soul within me cries but my eyes do not know so what I feel would heal a nation but my feelings itself hurt so bad enough to kill even the bravest how do I make the universe see that you are the most incredible thing to me how do I make the heavens release its trumpet at the sound of your voice the peace I feel when you touched my lips now in peace you rest that I might never see sleep the hole in my he...

No one knows why i once chose solitude. The fears i bear and carry daily. I claim to bruse easy when i hardly can be scratched. My grieve is not what i feel for i feel nothing. But the hurt i give and make everyone else around me bear. Those i reject are the futunate ones, its those i embrace that get burnt. I never planned hurting you, but my dragons are what you never would have imagined were real dragons Being attracted to the burning light doesn't make me a saint, i'm a fire demon, its what i breathe. Loving me has its consequences, being me makes the journey perillious. I try to hide the truth, i do my best to shelter you. But the dragon lies within so you are never really safe. I try not to let you down but i'm held bound. I'm aware i'm the beast, you can only wonder if my beauty survives. My dreams turn cold and my curse stays strong. You may not see this but i do try to care. Yet, no matter what i do, i am always what i am. Every glitter you see is...

Hi again, please listen; Many a times, i think of all the challenges and circumstances that surrounds us. The risk we take in even hoping for a chance for us. There are times when i feel safe enough to step out and run away while i still can. To flee a terrible heartbreak by doing a terrible thing. But i cant, I'd rather be terrible and miserable with you than without you. What's more miserable than a world with me in it and no you? I would only be an outlaw of outlaws, an outcast of no world or life. My every sense, part, system and function responds to the simple thought of you. For this reason, i am afraid, that death would surely come my way once i flee your path. Yet still, i will welcome it gladly if i were without you. This then is proof, indeed, i should run while i still can. Before the shadows and snares of loves grip really binds me hands and feet. You trust that i love you and i won't leave you alone or run away? To be honest, i do feel like running...